Close To Me

All these things I do to keep you close to me

And every day's another day from what we used to be

I don't know what I've been thinking

'Cause this is much like hell

It's days like this, I must insist

I'm not doing so well

Oh no, get lost in you

Like you know, I often do

And I wonder if you're proud of me

If you can hear me, shout at me

I need to kill this doubt in me for good

So help me now to let you go

So I can live

I think about these last 10 years

And what they've done to me

And I don't think it's worth it

'Cause it's just not fun to me

What if I just killed myself

And never spoke again?

Could you make your way back through the darkness

And meet me at the end?