In Love

I remember

The night we met

That night we sat

Entwined

Under summer skies

I looked into your eyes

You looked into mine

You said "you're not like the rest"

And I nodded

"No one understands me"

you said

And I nodded once again,

As if to agree that all men are indeed the same

Somehow, you said, I was different

For months on end I maintained

A veneer of sincere interest

As if I were listening

As you re-lived every page

Of self help and new age that you had read

And

I went in for the kill

I'd read the same books

I learned to ape the motions of a 'sensitive' human being

And we were 'oh so happy'

But you found things to fix

And I knew it was time

To move on

So now you have me completely figured out

You feel sorry for me

I can't express my feelings

I can't tell the truth

We are all alike

At puberty I was sworn to secrecy

By the international brotherhood

Of lying fickle males

I can't tell you anything

And

I can't commit

You're right

I can't commit, to you

I will always cherish our time together

I don't feel enough of anything

To harbor the kind of distain that you'll maintain

You painted me into what you wanted to see

And that's fine

But you will never know me