There & Back

I've just returned from a long round trip

Many tales I have to tell

Now I don't get high

so you think I'm not hip

But I've seen the gates of Hell

How can a youth rise above all the shit

When surrounded

by such lousy influence?

He clutched the pipe, took his last hit

And nobody's heard from him since

In this world of confusion

Drugs were my solution

The pain was breaking my heart

I shut out my reality

Nearing my fatality

found myself falling apart

Miserable, horrible, life such an obstacle

Making my own matters worse

To end up dead in a dark alleyway

Or to ride in the back of a hearse

To die for a cause like pride or respect

Or honor would make you quite worthy

A pitiful waste to live in the sewer

And die before you reach thirty

Cop a bag as a crutch

copping out, lose so much

hangin' out, dippin' butts

Lost my mind smoking dust

There and back

Back in the days I was living a lie

Too cool to show my feelings

too cool to cry

Lost in a fog and unsure of my friends

With a one way ticket

headed straight for the end

As the flames burnt the rope

and my spirit cut loose

I found my self wrapped

in an emotional noose

I said to myself continue no longer

Today I face the world with a mind

that is stronger

Spent my time gettin' nice

I crapped out rolling dice

Look at me and my scars

Now I live pure and hard

There and back