Losing Patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long

I had it all planned out

I was hoping it'd all work out

I was losing patience

you know it's never been my best trait

counting minutes, hours, counting days

then it dawned on me

unpredictabilty

I told myself everything's just fine

you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive

I was looking forward to this day for so long

I had it all planned out

I was hoping that it would all work out

would all work out

now I feel exposed

like a black light on the wall

in a darkened room

all the dirt appears

you can see my fears

I don't want to let my guard down

you know I never had the feeling

that you would prey on my insecurities

because I never had the feeling

that you would prey on these insecurities I have

why is this wait taking so long

why is this wait taking so long

counting minutes, hours, counting days

I'm losing patience

don't think this means I'm walking away

don't think this means I'm walking

I won't let fear get the best of me

now it's up to me, I wouldn't change a thing

I won't let fear get the best of me

DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY

now it's up to me, I wouldn't change a thing

DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY