Oceans Of Soliloquy

Like thousands of ripples in the ocean, thousands and thousands of ripples

Or a ight full with burning stars, burning bright with the fires of the sky

I see an unhappiness in your eyes, always in the eyes lies the truth

The loneliness in your voice, on the verge of tears,

Even across vast amounts of time, even without the use of time

I know you all too well

And I know that without you, I'm in my own self-made hell

If I threw a single coin into these oceans, one single coin

Would it take forever for the wves to reach you, and drown you in their volume,

Tears descend everytime I look out unto the night, and lay waste on my tongue

And to think somewhere you are looking out unto this same night, with another by your side

No matter how many times I cut into myself, deeper and deeper I cut

No amounts of blood can stop my hurt

So I just look back out at the night

Even the pleasure of orgasmic rush, the screams of absolute pleasure

Can no longer bury the dulled pain in my heart, and wash away the grief

This tired and weary heart, burned away by the pain,

I just want to rush out into your arms, but the embrace would deem so cold now

But dont have the strength, this mass ocean keeps us far apart,

And again, I must pull myself out of melancholy.

Many, many times I see your face, as if spinning in a dream

Deep in though of your hateful love, blind was I to it

But when I try to grasp you, you fade away, just like a dream

And your laughter echoes in my mind, they're all laughing

And across these oceans, I can still hear you laughing

And I fall to my knees to cover my ears from the laughing

Just like a thousand ripples in the ocean, thousands and thousands of ripples

And a night sky satiated with burning stars, burning bright with the fires of the sky

I see pools of unhappiness in your eyes, allways in the eyes lies the truth

You can tell me no more lies, yet you keep telling me lies

As they wont reach me anymore

They could never reach across these oceans of soliloquy

So dont tell me that you don't love me anymore, yet don't tell me

that you love me either...