Heavy

I fought a battle, I fought a war

I felt the rain on my face

Sometimes to find what you're looking for

You've gotta learn from your worst mistakes

I made a wish on a satellite

That I mistook for a star

Guess when you build up to break down

You find out who you really are

How did it all get so heavy

I used to stand up so tall

There's only so much I can carry

Before I fall

And they tell me "girl you're so lucky"

"You've got the world in your hands"

But you know the world gets so heavy

You don't understand

And that's heavy

Just tell me what's the intention

Is it to fall in love

I tried to find a connection

Between how it is and how it was

I made a promise I couldn't keep

Another story to tell

You swear to god that you know me

But I don't, don't even know myself

How did it all get so heavy

I used to stand up so tall

There's only so much I can carry

Before I fall

And they tell me "girl you're so lucky"

"You've got the world in your hands"

But you know the world gets so heavy

You don't understand

And that's heavy

Sometimes I lay awake in bed at night

I close my eyes and all I see is see the dreams I used to dream about when I was younger

I wonder where I took the path of no return

I might've lost my way a hundred times but no I never ever lost the hunger

Oh and I know every cut and every stitch and every scar

I know they've gotten me this far, they only made me tough, they made me stronger

But when it's hard to breathe and I just can't get off the floor

I long for days when I was free a life I lived so long before

It all got so heavy

I used to stand up so tall

There's only so much I can carry

Before I fall

They tell me "girl you're so lucky"

"You've got the world in your hands"

But the world gets so heavy

You don't understand

And that's heavy, heavy