I'm Trying

She said, I'm not pointing fingers and he said, yes you are

'Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't

And if I told you I'd been walking out in the dark night thinking

Would you take his truth as alcoholic's word?

Oh, I can't change what's done is done but I can tell you this

Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins

And I need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying

Though I haven't kicked the demons that haunt me

I'm trying, I'm trying

She sat down on the floor and said, I wish I was stronger

Right now I feel as fragile as glass

And I want to believe you, believe what's held you, has freed you

And I hate these doubts that keep on coming back

My parents think I'm crazy for hanging on this long

But there's nothing I want more for us than to prove to them they're wrong

And I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna think you're lying

And though I haven't found the faith, that I need

I'm trying, I'm trying

He asked, do you want me to leave? 'Cause if you do, you know I will

But she said, much to his disbelief, no, I love you still, oh, I love you still

He said, I don't know why I've been the fool but I can tell you this

Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins

Then he dropped down to his knees, by now they both were crying

He said, I haven't been the man I wanna be

But, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying